| Location | Corby, Northamptonshire |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 05/06/2009 |
| Date of Death | 05/06/2009 |
| Visitors | 1,734 since 11/08/2009 |
| Creator |
Where to start?. At the beginning I suppose!. I remember when I found out that I was pregnant back
in late September 2008, my 1st thought was "I really hope that I'm having a boy" - my husband John
and I had already been blessed with 2 beautiful girls Charlotte and Emma, a little boy would make
everything complete. I had my 20 week scan on 15th January 2009, I remember looking at John to
double check that he was ok with me wanting to find out the sex of the baby!, not that I would have
listened even if he wasn't ok!. When the sonographer said "it looks like you're having a boy" I was
over the moon, I can still remember the smile that spread across Johns face - I will never forget
it.
As things go my pregnancy wasn't too bad apart from having SPD (a pelvic condition) which I'd had in
my previous pregnancies. I was told I could possibly be induced at 38 weeks because of this - my
consultant then decided that there was no need to induce me because I'd had both my girls at full
term and naturally, they weighed 8lb 7ozs and 8lb 10ozs so he didn't forsee any problems. Of course
I sit now and wonder what would have happened if I had of been induced, would things be different?,
maybe, maybe not - I will never know.
John and I had decided in the last few weeks of pregnancy that our son was going to be named Oliver
- we used to say to our youngest Emma "what is your little brother called?" she would reply "Oliver
Hanvey - Ollie for short!". the girls were so excited, always talking about what they were going to
do to help once Oliver had arrived.
When I was 7 days overdue I went to the hospital for a stretch and sweep to try and get things
moving, I had this on Thursday 4th June in the morning. I was convinced that nothing would happen!.
At about 6pm that evening I started to get a bit uncomfortable, I still convinced myself that
nothing would happen. I was quietly excited at the thought of Oliver being born on a Thursday if
things carried on quickly as both the girls were born on Thursdays!. My Mum came to my house around
9pm to wait with John and I until I decided it was time to go to the hospital - I wanted to leave it
as long as possible, Oliver had been moving about normally and his heartbeat was fine at the
hospital earlier in the day so I had no cause for concern. My sister arrived at about 10pm to look
after the girls, I phoned labour ward and they told me to come over, I was nervous but so ready to
have Oliver after carrying him around for 41 weeks!.
When we got to labour ward they found Olivers heartbeat so as far as we were concerned everything
was ok - I went into a labour room around midnight which is when my nightmare began. The midwife
couldn't find a heartbeat so she decided to put a scalp clip on Olivers head, his heartbeat was
found - or so we thought. I've since been told that scalp clips can sometimes pick up the mothers
heartbeat.
I really wasn't in labour for very long, I pushed my beautiful baby boy out at 1.29am, he weighed
8lb 11ozs and was perfect, but there was silence - no screaming, no crying. The special care doctors
were called, everything was blurry. I felt like I was standing at the door watching everything going
on around me, wanting to scream, praying to God. The doctor tried to resusitate Oliver for 27
minutes, those minutes felt like an eternity - I can see the doctors face clearly in my mind as I'm
writing this now "I'm sorry", my boy was gone.
I could write a book of my story because I remember every detail, every word - how could I forget?.
I wanted to share this so that if another woman reading this is about to go through the same I want
to tell you to hold your baby, dress your baby, take as many pictures as you can because they are
the only memories that you will have. People will sympathise with how you are feeling but they don't
really know, even another woman that has been through the same wont know because she can't feel your
pain. Try not to let your grief consume you, do you think your little angel would want that?.
It will take time, a long time so I'm told - I will never feel complete again but every day it does
get a little bit easier, trust me. A part of my heart went with Oliver that day, just as a part of
yours will go with your angel - for the rest of our lives we will be living with broken ones. When
you leave the hospital, don't turn around, your heart will break all over again.
Don't let anyone say that your baby never lived, no matter how far pregnant you are or were, 24
weeks, 35 weeks or 41 weeks like me, your baby lived inside of you.
Nine months in our dreams, a moment in our arms, forever in our hearts.
Sleep tight my beautiful boy - we will be together again xxxx
We would like to thank every single member of our families and every one of our friends for all of
the love and support through what has been and still is an awful time - myself, John, Charlotte and
Emma really do appreciate everything. xx
We would like to say a very special thanks to all of Olivers Godparents, Sharon and Tony for all
their help with taking photographs and for the special DVD that they have made for John and I. Also
to Shestine for having the strength to stand up at Olivers funeral and read aswell as Tony for doing
the same, Andrew for just being there whenever we need him. xx
Update on 09.09.09
Well baby boy, Daddy and I had your inquest 2 days ago - we now have a reason for you growing your
angel wings. You had something called SUA (single unbilical artery) and also a thrombosis in your
cord. There was absolutely nothing I could have done that could have changed anything as the
thrombosis blocked the supply from your cord. It is some comfort to me to know that it wasn't my
fault as I have blamed myself with thoughts of "if only I'd kicked up more of a fuss to be induced",
"if only I'd have gone to the hospital earlier".
On the night we got the results I had my first full nights sleep in almost 14 weeks, I needed to
know that it was ok not to blame myself. I sat and explained to Charlotte and Emma - Charlotte
understood but Emma who has turned 4 since you left us really can't comprehend it all, she just
doesn't understand why you can't be here. To be honest I'm not sure if I really do.
You are the last thing on my mind before I go to sleep at night and the first thing on it when I
wake in the morning and I'm sure that will be the way it always is - I wouldn't want it any
different.
I have changed as a person since you left us - I don't think any woman could go through something
like this and not change, trivial things really don't matter anymore, how could they?!. The most
important thing for me is your Daddy and your sisters and also keeping your memory alive for as long
as I live.
Until we meet again beautiful boy xxxx
Nine months in our dreams, a moment in our arms, forever in our hearts xxxx
im so sorry xx
hi im the mummy to demi-leigh who u mentioned was buried only a couple of places from your precious oliver xxxx i feel horrible cuz on the day i had my section with my youngest son ( 4th june 09) your problems began with oliver xxxx im ever so sorry xx i have a new page for demi-leigh so we need to add one another on here as friends xxxxx im saddend by your loss and my heart is with u all xxxxxx
Do you know how hard it is
to hold a baby who doesn't cry?
Do you know how hard it is
to tell that baby goodbye?.
Do you know how hard it is
to look at an empty bed?
Knowing your child should be there
resting his sleepy head.
Do you know how hard it is
feeling your to blame?
And no matter what they tell you
you will always feel the same.
Do you know the heartache
knowing he's gone for good?
And feeling that you didn't
do all the things you could.
Do you know how hard it is
to hear that it is God's will?
Do you know the emptiness
when your child is born still?.
Unknown Author.
Mummy wont be able to visit you here for a little while, Daddy and I are taking the girls away on holiday-the 4 of us need to spend some much needed time together. You will never be more than a thought away while im there. Aunty Liese, Granny Nancy and Sharon are going to look after your flowers for me whilst im away, I couldn't bear the thought of you being all alone up there for over a week so Im very glad that you will have visitors. It will make a change for you instead of seeing me all the time!. I will be back to see you as soon as im home, until then-sleep tight my beautiful boy x x x x
TRIBUTE FOR THURSDAY
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
The sands of time go slipping by
And life,it's said go on.
But this world's not the same
Now that you have gone.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
There are so many precious memories
Of all the times we shared.
The happiness,the laughter
That may never be compared.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
One day we'll meet again
When once again I'll share with you.
All the happy times
Just like we always used to do.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
TRIBUTE FOR FRIDAY
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
Sometimes Angels sing to you in the wind...
Sometimes they call you from your dreams...
Sometimes they walk beside you
And whisper in your ear...
I will hold your hand ,through good
and bad times,I will brush away tears
I will always be here.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
TRIBUTE FOR SATURDAY
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
I can‘t hold your hand
Or look into your eyes,
And when I talk to you,
It just echoes in my mind;
But If hearts are made of dust
And if we fell from the stars,
I would look up tonight and know just where you are.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
TRIBUTE FOR SUNDAY
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
You will never be forgotten.
A million days could pass us by,
But what is time but just a dream?
Oh I still feel you here with me.
You’re more than just a memory.
Oh, you will never be forgotten.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄
And the world just keeps on going;
It has no way of knowing
That you’re gone.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ...Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
⋱♰⋰ I Am With You Always ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ As you hold me close in memory ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Even though we are apart ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ My spirit will live on ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ There within your heart ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ I am with you always ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ When you lean on trusted friends ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ And their caring hugs enfold you ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Within their loving arms ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ I'll be there to hold you ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ I am with you always ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ And beyond the far horizon ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ When we'll finally be together ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Where love will be eternal ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ And life will last forever ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ I am with you always ⋱♰⋰
angels babys together
Hi i too have a beautiful angel baby jourdain pritchard your story has touched me i hope jourdain and oliver and all the other angel babys are together having fun in heaven watch over your family oliver you are missed and loved so much you are such a beautiful boy sleep tight xxxxx
angels called your name so gently,
That only you could hear.
No one heard the footsteps,
Of angels drawing near.
Softly from the shadows
There came a gentle call,
You closed your eyes and went to sleep,
And quietly left us all.
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Tributes For This Weekend
FOR FRIDAY 28TH AUGUST
Good Bye
I know my time has ended,
Its time for me to leave.
I want you all to know,
You mean so much to me.
Why I had to go,
Was a mystery to me.
All I heard was God,
Saying “ Please come home to me.”
So I left my friends and family,
I didn’t say goodbye.
All I got to see,
Were the tears in their eyes.
But as I saw them crying,
I asked them not to grieve.
Knowing how much we care,
That our love will never cease.
You can look up at the sky,
And look over to the sea.
When you feel that gentle breeze,
You always think of me.
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FOR SATURDAY
If I Had One Last Day
If I had one last day
To tell you what's inside
I'd tell you that I'm sorry
For all the times I've lied
I'd tell you that I need you
To hold my hand today
I'd tell you that I love you
I'd ask you, please, to stay
You'd look at me and smile
The way you always would
And say "I'd love to stay,
If only I really could"
Then you'd laugh the way you did
Whenever I was blue
You'd wipe my tears and whisper softly,
"Don't cry, I love you too"
If I had one last day
I'd love you from the start
I'd stop hiding how I feel
I'd say what's in my heart
If I had one last day,
I'd say my last good-bye
And that even though you are far away,
In my heart, you'll never die.
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FOR SUNDAY
Letter From Heaven For My Family........
When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry,
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an Angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind,
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you".
Today for life on earth is past,
But here it starts anew.
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Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
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To my Great Grandson Oliver
Twinkle twinkle our little star,
how we wonder where you are
are you up above our world so high?
being our little diamond in the sky.
Great Granny Nancy xx
so beautiful
such a beautiful baby boy , my heart goes ot to you at this sad time . i too lost my baby boy in april this year after 1 day and 5 hours old . and like you i took many photos and bought little harley home with me forom hospital as we were not in our local hospital due to harley been so early. it does get a little easier as you say. but like you there,s always that empty feeling a sense of feeling lost. a little boy is what we dreampt of we were so excited and couldnt wait. like you it all seems like yesterday . i hope that time does heal the pain and i believe that we will all meet our loved ones again until then our little boys i know will be kept safe in the arms of angels. sweet dreams little oliver xxxx
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